Fairytale Shelf Life [MTL]

Ch 40

Chapter 40

"I was the one who killed Chen Xichuan."

Song Zhi didn't expect Zhou Yichan to reveal the secret suddenly, she was stunned for a moment, and in surprise, she couldn't help but loosen the hand that hugged him.

And this slight change, in Zhou Yichan's eyes, was shock, fear and dodge.

She laughed at herself with tears in her eyes, and she burst into tears again, her voice full of suppressed pain: "It's surprising, right? Didn't you expect that I'm actually a criminal murderer. I deserve everything, being bullied and blackmailed , It's all because I really have ghosts in my heart..."

The girl choked up, and withdrew from her embrace, but stared stubbornly into her eyes.

Song Zhi saw almost decisive self-destruction.

It seems that he finally decided to cut off the high-hanging tormenting sword of Damocles towards himself, seeking relief by "death". A kind of infinite guilt and guilt, thinking that he is not worthy of any self-abandonment.

It's not a gesture of opening up and letting go, but rather a gesture of telling her the truth and saying goodbye to her forever.

Song Zhi felt sad and heartbroken, instead of moving away from Zhou Yichan, she held Zhou Yichan's hand tightly.

"I knew it a long time ago." She told the girl frankly and sincerely, "When I was in London, I knew from Jiang Shuyue that you might have something to do with Chen Xichuan's death." Zhou Yichan stared slightly, and the held

hand Instinctively shrinking back, the emotion seems to be more fearful.

"But!" Song Zhi immediately said again, "I don't believe it, I don't believe you will harm Chen Xichuan."

She looked directly into her eyes: "I don't want to listen to anyone else's words, I only believe what you say. Yichan, I'll be your tree hole if you want."

"Remember what I said the night I wrote the review, it was true. Whatever the truth, 'I'll never hate you', 'We'll be friends forever '."

Song Zhi's unconditional trust and commitment finally let go of Zhou Yichan's last bit of defense.

With mixed feelings, the girl cried and laughed, wiping away her tears for a long time. She tried to open her mouth several times, but her words were washed away by tears.

Song Zhi didn't urge her, but just wiped her tears with a tissue.

I don't know how long it has passed, Zhou Yichan, who had calmed down her emotions, suddenly said,

"I was only ten years old when I fell in love with Chen Xichuan..."

In the lonely car, Song Zhi heard a young girl's most youthful thoughts.

She heard how that ignorant and sensitive little Zhou Yichan looked up to her gentle brother who was unattainable.

Zhou Yichan couldn't describe how she felt when she went to a banquet with her father and saw him goodbye after being protected by Chen Xichuan that night. She said that it was happier than receiving a doll for the first time in her life.

In the brightly lit banquet hall, she plucked up the courage to talk to her.

"Brother, do you still remember me?" She was cautious and expectant.

No, Chen Xichuan didn't answer, but squatted down, smiled and gestured to her with a hook.

He still remembers!

Zhou Yichan said in the name of gratitude: "Brother, I want to send you a gift to thank you." Afraid of revealing her feelings, she added, "Dad said that others helped me, so I must thank you." In fact, the girl is just innocent

, I want to say goodbye to him.

Unexpectedly, the young man patted her head and praised with a smile: "What a polite and good girl. If that's the case—"

he said, "Then give me a painting."

Zhou Yichan stared round in disbelief.

The young man confirmed what she thought: "I heard from your father that you are very good at drawing."

Suppressing the joy and joy in her heart, she asked with a thump, "Brother, what's your name? Write down who it is for."

"Chen Xichuan, Erdong Chen, the poet Xichuan's Xichuan."

This day was the happiest day in Zhou Yichan's life.

She knew his name, and even more accidentally, it turned out that her father was very sure of her paintings.

Since then, Zhou Yichan often ran to Chen's house with a paintbrush, becoming "the little tail behind Brother Xichuan".

But in fact, at this time, the ignorant little girl didn't know that this was liking.

Until one year later, when Chen Xichuan went to study in England, she began to miss him and wanted to see him; until two years later, Chen Xichuan introduced Xie Yumeng to her.

Only then did Zhou Yichan suddenly understand what she was thinking.

However, the person she likes already has a girlfriend, and he only regards her as his younger sister.

The relationship between Chen Xichuan and Xie Yumeng is very good.

Zhou Yichan secretly watched them travel around Europe together, watched them go out as a couple to participate in school activities, and watched them embracing and kissing in the New Year's Eve fireworks.

Like a shadowy clown, she peeps into another girl's life every day.

Xie Yumeng is bright and warm, an existence that Zhou Yichan will never be able to match in her eternal life. They were a sweet couple made in heaven, and she didn't even have the confidence to hope that they might break up.

The fact is true, not only did Chen Xichuan never think about breaking up, he even revealed to her that he was going to propose to Xie Yumeng.

On that day, Zhou Yichan found another excuse to go to Chen's house. At dusk, she was sketching in the garden of the villa, and Chen Xichuan came over and asked her to come in for dinner.

Maybe the young man was too nervous. After finishing his business, he suddenly sat down beside her and said, " Brother

has something to ask you, but can you keep it a secret?"

Yi nodded happily: "Okay, is it a secret that only the two of us know?" "

Yes." Chen Xichuan smiled gently, "I'm going to propose to Sister Yu Meng.

" Falling hard like weightless, how happy the last second was, how painful this second is, and the internal organs are sore.

Zhou Yichan choked herself, trying to overcome the despair of losing her soul. She managed to force a smile: "Really, that's very good, why keep it a secret?"

Chen Xichuan's smile deepened, and he said with a satisfied sense of happiness: "Secrets are enough surprises."

Immediately, he seriously Ask her: "Does our great artist have any romantic suggestions? For example, when and where."

In fact, Zhou Yichan does.

Because she has been peeping at everything about Xie Yumeng, she actually knows: she doesn't care about time and place, and she doesn't like to engage in formalities, but looks forward to the casual romance in daily details.

She can obviously give the most constructive and effective proposal plan.

However -

she likes this boy so much, thinking that he might move to London with Xie Yumeng after getting married, she might lose it completely.

On a whim, she chose to lie.

"I really know this."

Zhou Yichan blinked at Chen Xichuan, "Sister Yu Meng said that she wanted to be proposed in the presence of a friend. During the graduation trip by self-driving in the west of Sichuan, there are snow-capped mountains and starry sky, green fields and sunsets, what does brother think? Like?"

This summer vacation, my father said that he would take her to drive in western Sichuan.

Zhou Yichan selfishly recommended this place for Chen Xichuan. She despicably wanted to create some last memories of walking with him even though she knew he was going to get married.

Even if there is only a one in ten thousand chance, she still wants to give it a try.

Unexpectedly, the boy's eyes brightened slightly.

"Thank you Yichan!" He rubbed her forehead hair, turned and trot away with an excited expression.

Zhou Yichan was as unreal as a falling dream, her sourness turned into secret joy.

Chen Xichuan actually accepted her suggestion and invited her to join him on his graduation trip. Although it was a large group of people, she still walked with him with great satisfaction and hope.

"But, in the end, because of my selfish suggestion, he was buried in the west of Sichuan..."

Zhou Yichan broke down in tears several times when she told the end of the story, she was wrapped up in endless regret and self-blame.

In the end, she kept repeating the same sentence: "This is the punishment for my greed. I was the one who killed him."

Repeatedly, she seemed to have returned to the scene of the nightmare accident.

Song Zhi sympathized with the girl's helplessness and despair, and wept along with her.

In fact, everything was pretty much the same as she expected, Zhou Yichan was not an executioner at all, it was just a blunder, a trick of God. In fact, with so many variables in the proposal plan, Chen Xichuan may not really follow Zhou Yichan's suggestion completely.

However, how do I tell the girl that she is insignificant in Chen Xichuan's story and life?

She liked him so much, from ten to eighteen years old, secretly and painfully looked up at the same boy.

The girl is humble and miserable enough, Song Zhi couldn't bear to shatter her last little hope.

She could only hug Zhou Yichan tightly, cry with her, and comfort her: "No, Yichan, you didn't harm anyone. It was an accident, it was an accident, something that no one could control. And—" Song Zhining choked

, After calming down a little, he said again: "I believe that Chen Xichuan will not blame you, he took the initiative to ask you, and he made the final decision himself. Yichan, he is such a gentle person, he would not want you to be like you are now." Such self-blame and pain."

With tears rolling down Song Zhi's neck, she heard Zhou Yichan crying and saying: "But I would rather he blame me."

Because she knew how gentle and kind he is, because she knew him If she doesn't blame her, she will blame herself even more.

Only in this way is it burdensome.

Song Zhi completely understood the girl's thoughts.

She didn't feel hypocritical, nor did she refute, she just hugged her even tighter and said: "It's okay, now I also know the secret. From now on, we will bear the burden together and atone for our sins together." Song Zhi did what he said, no matter what the truth is,

she Believe and understand unconditionally.

And Zhou Yichan stopped talking, and finally burst into tears.

When the two girls talked to each other all night, Chen Yan finally returned home.

At that time, the commemorative meeting had long since ended, but the video of my brother was still showing on the curtain.

The huge living room echoed Chen Xichuan's farewell from home when he was studying abroad, and his mother was sitting alone on the sofa, already asleep.

Standing in the light and shadow, Chen Yan watched silently for a while, finally he picked up the remote control and turned it off decisively.

The night wind blows the curtains, and the empty villa exudes a sense of bleakness.

Chen Yan didn't wake up her mother, but went upstairs to bring a sheet and covered her gently. The movements were already very light, but Liang Qinghe, who was in a light sleep, still opened his eyes in a daze, and murmured: "Xichuan, you are back..."

He paused, no longer seemed to be rebellious during the day, and tucked the quilt for his mother and lightly "Hum" sounded.

Liang Qinghe's brows relaxed suddenly, and he closed his eyes and fell asleep peacefully.

Chen Yan turned back again, and returned to his room after passing through the corridors hung with the half life of Chen Xichuan.

After lying down, time seemed to go back to the second year of junior high school. After losing his elder brother, he was dispatched to far away England. As long as he closed his eyes, he would see a horrible scene of mud and flood.

When I came back this time, the situation seemed to be getting worse.

Chen Yan tossed and turned for a long time, then sat up again, opened the window, and let the stuffy air escape.

He didn't try to sleep anymore, just leaned against the window, constantly turning the phone between his fingers. In the end, he couldn't hold back, and played the voice for the girl.

Unfortunately, no one answered for a long time, and the system automatically hung up for him.

Would she fall asleep early on such a night?

Thinking of the girl's aloofness, Chen Yan stared at the dialog box with her, slightly absent-minded.

Suddenly, the phone vibrated in the palm of his hand.

He stared for a moment, only to find that it was a letter from the manager of the team.

[Chen, a businessman insists on wanting you, and the offer is very good. 】

【It's just that summer break is free, thinking of flying back? 】

Chen Yan is not short of money. He has always been not very interested in business. Sometimes he will pick up two depending on his mood or to save face.

The summer break is his absolute personal time, and he would reply decisively "No way" in the usual way.

But at this moment, Chen Yan hesitated.

His return did not make his mother better, nor did it continue the relaxed and interesting half month in London.

It seems pointless to stay any longer.

After pondering for a while, Chen Yan clicked on the ticket purchase page and booked the earliest flight tomorrow morning.

Song Zhi spent a long time with Zhou Yichan that night.

From the car to the hotel, she comforted the girl over and over again, whether it was useful or not. It wasn't until dawn that the girl couldn't cry anymore, and finally fell asleep exhausted, and she left lightly.

On the way back, Song Zhicai began to review the truth that Zhou Yichan had revealed.

According to the girl, after Chen Xichuan succeeded in proposing marriage, she left with Zhou Yan and separated from them because she felt too uncomfortable. Then, did something happen later, that's why Chen Yan's mother said that he killed her brother again.

Moreover, since it was a marriage proposal trip, why was Xie Yumeng not with Chen Xichuan when the mudslide happened?

Song Zhi checked when he was in London. After being buried by mudslides, the chance of surviving is extremely low. Almost one or two minutes is enough to suffocate to death.

If Xie Yumeng and Chen Xichuan were together at that time, it makes no sense that only one of them died.

There must be some inside story that neither she nor Zhou Yichan knew about.

But these questions, Song Zhi couldn't ask Zhou Yichan now.

Firstly, the other party really didn't know the circumstances of the accident; secondly, the girl finally opened up and vented a little, she didn't want to add new pressure to her with uncertain things.

She is too sensitive, and Song Zhi is afraid that if she thinks too much, she will mistakenly think that her continued exploration is actually because she cares about her unintentional "fault".

After thinking about it, maybe only another person can give her the answer to this matter.

Song Zhixin made a decision, stopped suddenly, and immediately sent a message to the young man:

[Chen Yan, does what you said that day still count? 】

【If I open my mouth, will you stay? 】