My First Love..

🌼 Chapter 33

< °°Y/N's P. O.V°° >

It was already late and just like these past two weeks, I'm still working. Why? I don't know...

The thought of going home doesn't make me feel anything anymore. It's like the normal same routine, and with same routine, came the same thought. Its was all my fault...

"Let's go home, Y/N."

Y/N. Another change in my life was that, Jungkook would call me by my name whenever he'd feel really annoyed or mad at me for acting the way I am and sometimes I feel like I'm doing this on purpose. It's like a fucked up way to get his attention but why? His attention was always on me.. No matter what I do, wherever I am, he'd always be there.

I hummed in reponse and packed my stuffs.

We drove back home silently. It's been days, I refused to go on dinner dates or any trips or outing that Jungkook planned and I know it hurt him, maybe this is why I feel like I need some space, distance, I just need to be away from him, for some reason.

"I'm going to mom's place tomorrow." I announced suddenly.

Jungkook's car stops as the signal goes red.

"Why?" his voice sounds as if he is in pain.

" They are going to Singapore and asked me if wanted to come with them. I agreed."

"They- we" he moistens his lips before asking. "Without me?"

"I just want some time away from all of this-"

"You mean some time away from me?"

"I did not say that -"

"But this is exactly where you're heading to."

His grip tightens on the wheel.

"When?"

I looked at him confusingly.

"I mean when is the flight?" He asked.

"Tomorrow, in the afternoon."

"No need to go to your mom's for that, I'll drop you at the airport."

"Don't be stupid, Kook. You are going to be at work, I wouldn't want you to leave-"

"I am allowed to take some time off for my wife. I'm going to drop you at the airport tomorrow, and it's final. Please just.. Just don't argue with me on this, Y/N."

"Okay" I muttered.

We haven't exchanged any other words after this, and once home, we were just on our own.

I know he didn't like the idea of me going to Singapore without him, but he wouldn't insist with me. This is probably how much he loves me, he'd let me do anything I want to just to make me feel better,but these days nothing really is.

I've been feeling worse and maybe it's because I'm neglecting everything, from myself to my relationship with him.

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