A Place For My Depression

I want to escape

I wanna escape,

Am tired of being fake,

Why was I even made,

Clearly am just a mistake,

At least that's what everyone say,

That am not needed,

That I need to be shut,

Be silent,

Be quite,

I need not to talk,

They show me that I can't be something more,

My world is broken,

Will you just listen,

I got a voice,

And I can speak,

I can talk,

I can say what I want,

So stop shutting me out,

You're breaking my heart,

Though am trying to fight the pain,

It all ends up in vein,

I will always cry,

Even though I can't stop saying am fine,

When I know the pain is controlling my mind,

Like am right here but they don't see me,

Am literally a living thing,

I can feel,

I can be real,

I'm standing right here but they're ignoring me,

And that's what I fear,

I am writing all I want,

But no one will ever understand,

The pain of loving and not being loved,

Pretending so another can be happy,

They will call you a fool,

But never to understand you,

The pain I feel can never change,

I just have to keep holding it in,

Don't let them see,

Don't let them in,

Don't let them know,

Won't let them console me,

Cause then they will pity me,

So around them I smile

But alone I shall cry.