A Place For My Depression

"...Am sorry..."

      It's been a while since I've written,

     This past few weeks have been shitty,

      But am still hanging on barely,

      At least am still living and breathing,

       I still know how to keep smiling,

       But I have also been crying,
    
       Dying,
     
       And begging,

       Begging for help,

      But as usual no one sees that,

      They're all blinded by the fasad,

       But for a moment I wanna drop it all,

        The Smiling and the happy face,

        The pretending to be unfazed,

        Because it's exhausting it's tiring OKAY!!!?
  
         Am fucking tired,
    
        I wanna scream it aloud,
  
    That I AM FUCKING TIRED!!!!,

       Someone please just see that am in so much pain,

       In so much pain that it suffocates me,

        I am drowning,

       Drowning in my sorrow,

     I am now a drifted soul,

     Who no one sees is fading away slowly,

       But deadly,

     The pain and the frustration got me writing,

         None of this is even rhyming,

        I wasted your time am sorry.