A Place For My Depression

...This is stupid...

   I can't get you out my mind anymore,

Two minutes without you is too long,

I really didn't want to love,

But some how you made me fall,

My brain told my heart don't catch feelings,

But look here I am writing,

Praying to see you in my dreams,

Waiting patiently for you to say you love me,

The only time am truly happy,

Is when I cuddle with you in my dream,

And the only time am truly sad,

Is when I wake up and realise it wasn't real,

Yeah that really stings,

Especially when I realize it will never be,

This love is eating on me like a disease,

I don't know if I want it,

Especially when you don't want me,

Fuck this is exhausting,

How do I explain what am feeling,

Trust me when I say it's deeper than this,

We haven't even gotten to the least,

Fuck this loneliness is killing me,

I always said I needed somebody,

Now I fell for someone it just can't fucking be,

What an irony,

I guess finding love isn't in my destiny,

Fuck what am I doing,

I can't even write a proper poetry,

That's how much he got me,

Just close the book this is stupid am sorry.