Best Friend || MYG [+18] ✔️

50.

Note: There's a lot of fast forward so keep that in mind. Ehe~

Chae Eun's P.O.V

•••

I woke up in the middle of the night, feeling uneasy. I feel scared, anxious. I turn on the lamp that's on my nightstand. Then I see Yoongi's photo. I froze and sigh. Sitting up properly as i rested against my bed board. I turn to see the picture again, and end up sighing again. I miss him. A lot. Grabbing my phone, i try to give him a call. It rings.

And rings. And keep on ringing. I end the call with another sigh. The time says that it's 3 am. Maybe he's asleep. Maybe. In 3 months time, it will be a year that I've been staying here. Seems like my second home. But i know the feel is different. Not just the people, but the surroundings. I don't see my friends, my workers, my old house. And once it's turning a year, i told myself to stop contacting Yoongi. I have to do this. One day, i will definitely let him meet our daughter. But for now, i want him to focus on his marriage the most.

It hurts that he is not my husband. And also he doesn't know that i love him. Before going to bed earlier on, Sae Eun told me how Yoongi and Luna are doing. They're doing very well. Yet, no news but Sae Eun said Yoongi is slowly opening his heart for Luna. I'm thankful that this runaway is not a waste. I'm happy for them. Suddenly i felt my baby girl moving and kicking. I smile, caressing my bump slowly. I grab my phone, going through old photos in my gallery.

Tons and tons of pictures of Yoongi and me. Be it his selfies, or just pictures of the both of us. I love his gummy smile a lot. It's very cute. I wanna touch him. I miss him. As i go through old photos, i find myself crying. I just miss him so much. So so much. I decide to call him again. This time he answered. "Odneneksk... ah who is this?" - Yoongi asked in his husky voice.

I wipe my tears and smile. "It's me."

"Oh.. chae~ What's up baby?" - he said still in his husky voice, feeling his smile.

"I just miss you. Like a lot." - i said, sighing.

He sighs. "I miss you too baby. So much." - he said. I cried hearing that. And he heard them.

"Don't cry. I'll be crying as well." - he said.

"I'm sorry. I'll call you tomorrow. Good night." - i said.

"Don't cry. Good night, love." - he said and ends the call. I put my phone away, crying even more. No words can be explained, how much i miss him. I cry, and cry. And cry.

•••

"Your due date is any time, so be alert." - my doctor said. She said that last week but it feels like she's saying that right now. Those words keeps repeating in my ears. I really am nervous about this. I'm scared. The excitement doesn't seem to be there. Giving birth is a very painful thing that no words can be described. The pain is beyond tolerable for a normal human being. But still, mothers stayed so strong to give us life. That hits me. Eomma, i miss you. So much. I sighed, while watching the tv.

What if... what if I can't be a good mom? What if I'll fail to be the best mom for my daughter? How am i going to manage? Will i be able to manage? Oh god. This just hits me. I was excited for my daughter to be out but now, I'm just scared if I'll not be a good mom to her. I start breaking down. But quietly. I feel extra emotional these days, it's crazy. I've been crying on my own a lot, at night. Because I miss Yoongi a lot. I wipe my tears, taking a deep breathe and lets go slowly.

I feel a sudden light pain coming from below. Which makes me panic. Oh okay I don't know what to do. I start feeling uneasy, extra scared. "Sae Eun-ah." - i called.