Destined

59

*Dj's POV*

It took everything in me not to start crying, and not even because I was sad, because I was mad. I had made myself look stupid in front of Jayon yet again. Now I just wanted to go home and forget about all of this, I should have just went in the first time he dropped me off but no. I wanted to be around Jayon so bad, just for him to disrespect me.

His words started to play a song in my mind back to back.

"I knew you were gonna be a tease, but not this much of a fucking tease,"

"You're making me wait to hit, but we're constantly doing shit with each other to provoke fucking!"

It took me a while to realize that even though he had said it harshly, he was being honest. He was being brutally honest with me, and even though I didn't wanna hear it he still said those things. Sure, he could have said it better and it would have prevented me from slapping him, but he didn't. He was angry and that's what happens when he's angry, he lashes out and turns into an asshole

I didn't blame him for calling me a tease because that's exactly what I was, a true tease. I did everything to him sexually except actual sex. I could understand why he asked that, but I wasn't expecting to hear that from him so soon. He's never talked about sex with me, I thought we were just fine without it.

It wasn't the fact that I was scared to have sex with Jayon, because I wasn't. Just earlier when he fingered me I had been contemplating on giving him my virginity right then and there...but I was still worried. I guess you could say I was scared, in a way.

"Dj! Come on now, please," I had heard Jayon's voice followed by panting and heavy breathing.

"What?" I snap, turning my head around to face him.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said all of that," he tells me, reaching for my hands.

"Don't touch me, and don't say sorry now, because you clearly meant everything you said,"

"Calm down, I'll walk you home," he tells me.

"Yeah because your cars in front of my house so you technically have to walk me home, to get inside of your car and drive the hell away,"

"Dj chill. You're tripping,"

"I mean it Jayon," I told him.

"I mean it too, you're tripping on me now but you'll be cool with me tomorrow, I'm not losing you again,"

"Funny because I recall the last time we had a small fall out you were the one that didn't talk to me for weeks, just because I made you leave my house after I'd let you spend the night knowing I couldn't have boys over. You were so angry at that small thing you caused it to be the root of why we didn't speak. Then, you fucked plenty of girls I might add. Now, it's my turn Jayon. Should I ignore you for what? 3 weeks? Maybe hit up a couple random guys? Let THEM eat my pussy?"

"That's enough! I fucking get it Dj, I fucking get it alright? I'm sorry. I'm sorry for every thing I've done to you and maybe I do deserve for you to be angry at me for 3 weeks," he yelled, trying to bring himself back to his regular tone.

I stayed silent, turning around to finish the walk back to my house. There was no point of us talking after he said that, none.

The walk was awkward and quiet. I knew Jayon had been behind me but it was weird to know that he was; not saying a single word. I wanted to know what he was thinking, how he was thinking.

Ofcourse I wasn't gonna stop talking to him for 3 weeks, nor was I gonna let some random niggas eat me out. It was just the simple fact that I realized I had been taking too much from Jayon, much more than I ever thought I would take from anyone, and I wanted him to feel as bad as I was feeling.

I felt nothing but happiness with him when we weren't arguing, but sadly arguing came with all couples. I just wish it didn't.

He grabbed my shoulder and turned me towards him, planting a kiss on my lips but I pushed him off angrily.

"No Jayon, a kiss isn't gonna work this time,"

"A kiss always works," he said.

"Get off of me," I tell him, continuing to push his body away from mines.

"Psh," he smacked his lips, walking passed me. "You acting like this even after I just apologized to you more than I've ever apologized to any one. You don't get it Dj, you really don't, I don't have to take this shit from you,"

"You don't have to take this from me? No Jayon I don't have to take ANYTHING from you. Don't get the game twisted,"

"There's nothing I've put you through that you haven't put me through,"

"So why the fuck are we a thing then if all we seem to do is hurt each other? Why can't you just leave me alone?" I ask. I hurt myself asking that but in the heat of the moment I was obligated to ask or say anything.

"Because I don't wanna lose your stupid ass. You don't wanna lose me either I know you don't,"

"Don't call me stupid, I'm far from that!" I yelled. He had been walking in front of me now, turning around every time he spoke. It was getting tiring yelling at the back of his head but this was a cycle neither of us was going to stop.

"You want me gone Dj? For good this time? Cause I can make it happen,"

"Fuck you Jayon. We've only known each other for a bit of time anyway, I don't need you around,"

"You say that tonight," he grins.

We make one last turn before we arrive back to the front of my house. His car was still parked there and the lights to my house were still off.

He makes his way to his car without another word, I wanted him to turn around, to follow me to my door but he didn't. He just let me go.
And knowing he was letting me go hurt more than knowing I was letting him.