Destined

65

*Jayons POV*

My head was pounding. The more I sat here with Amira I realized how stupid I had been acting. I really left Dj with some dude from her past, that she never even told me about. 2 weeks ago the dude would have been on the floor with blood all around him, passed the fuck out, but we hadn't been together, so as much as I hated the fact that she was giving someone else the attention I wanted, I couldn't be mad about it.

This was probably Amira's plan. She knew I still loved Dj and she was trying to do everything in her power to make me not love her. Her and her evil group of hoes she called friends probably created this entire scheme in order to make Hayden and Dj connect again. It angered me, and it only made me dislike Amira even more. I wasn't even worried about the fact that Dj had actually choked out a girl and slapped another at this point.

Although, I knew from the way she was choking Danielle that she still loved me, she couldn't let go of what we had no matter what. I was the first dude she let kiss her, this Hayden dude didn't have shit on me. I knew that.

"Jayon?" Amira spoke, making my mind pause. "Are you okay?" She asked, rubbing my wrist.

"I'm fine," I said pulling from her. I rubbed my head furiously. Why was I still inside with her when I should have been out there with Dj?

I stood up from the crowded crouch we all sat on and made my way outside, not even worried about Amira's loud voice calling my name. She was beginning to annoy me more than usual with the name calling.

I seen Dj standing on the sidewalk, her arms crossed as she stared at the sky. I wish I knew what she was thinking. I began to walk towards her quickly, trying to catch her attention.

"Dj?" I said. She turned around almost instantly, making minimal eye contact with me. "Hey,"

"What now Jayon?" She spoke. I could tell from her tone that she didn't want to deal with me. Not now at least.

"Look, I-"

"Yeah I know. You're sorry. You're always sorry," she said cutting me off.

"Dj listen. I know why you're upset, and I know why you came here,"

"Why am I Jayon? And why did I?"

"Because you love me. It's the same answer for both questions. No matter what we go through you'll always love me and you know that shit. There's no debate to it,"

She shook her head, looking away from me.

"You choked Danielle because you hated the fact that me and her had intimate history, the type of history that you want me to have with only you," I start. My headache was slowly going away and it was getting easier to explain myself to her. "But Dj, she is the type of girl I never respected. You are different. I swear you are, you're not like any of the girls from my past. I know that's some cliche' shit, but it's the truth. I wish you could understand how much you really mean to me. I'm only 17 but I swear when I'm around you I feel older, wiser, more mature. I've never loved anyone like I love you and the bond we have is never gonna fade,"

She looks at me while a tear started to run down her face. "I love you Jayon, trust me I do, but what we have going on isn't okay. I won't keep falling into your arms every time you're the one that trips me. Do you understand? Everything we've been through in a matter of almost 2 months is more than most couples can handle in a matter of a year. Everything is too fast. We rushed this, we rushed this relationship. Initially, we didn't even try to be friends, and at first I loved the fact that what we had was love at first sight because I didn't believe it could happen, but I realized that it's dangerous, and I'm doing things that I wouldn't have ever done before. I could have seriously killed Danielle tonight all because of this infatuation I have with you! I don't wanna be that person, I don't wanna experience jealousy and heartbreak, I don't, not at 16. We can be friends, but I can't jump back into a relationship with you," she said. The more she talked the more tears came running from her eyes. She hadn't cried in front of me in a while so seeing her do so made me just wanna kiss her. I just wanted to wipe them all away. I took in all of the words she spoke and each time she said something negative my heart cracked. She was right though. I couldn't fight her on this one.

I was the one that stopped what we had going for my own selfish needs. I said the wrong things to her sometimes when she didn't deserve it. The type of dude she needed probably was Hayden. He looked well mannered, and despite her not telling me shit about him I seen the way she looked at him when I made her. I seen the encounters they had given each-other. I wanted to know him, I wanted to know what he was all about and why Dj never spoke about him to me, but that was all irrelevant if I couldn't get her to be mine again.

"I don't wanna lose you Dj," I said to her, pulling her entire body towards mines. I gripped my hand around the back of her neck and held her as she softly cried into my chest. She shook her head, wiping her tears on my shirt.

"You wont," she mumbled. "I told you we can be friends," she sniffed.

"I can't be your friend," I said, trying my best to hold myself together. "I need you more than on a friendly level, you can't do this shit to me man,"

"Jayon," she let go of my back. "Look at me," she said, wiping her red eyes. "You're going to be fine, we've been on breaks before. Do what you've been doing,"

"It was easier for me to deal with our breaks because I always knew we'd get back together, I knew we'd bounce back Dj, but you talking about letting me go forreal? Hell nah," I shook my head.

"It's gonna be okay Jayon," she told me, wiping my face. I didn't realize I had been crying over this girl. I seemed like a pussy but she needed to know how bad it hurt me to let her go. I don't know what she was thinking, or why she had the courage to stop what we had going on for good, but it wasn't fair.

"Promise me something," she sniffed, holding onto my shoulders.

"What?" I asked.

"Promise me, that no matter who you meet in the future, that you'll never love anyone else like you love me,"

"I promise," I spoke lowly, shaking my head again. "No, Dj. We can't end shit like that,"

"Jayon, please," she said. I didn't say anything back, but instead watched her before she kissed me on my cheek softly. She let go of my shoulders, and gave me one last hug.

I gripped her tightly because it hurt me knowing I had to let her go. I didn't know if this was temporary, I prayed to God that it was, but I knew after tonight, I wouldn't see her for awhile. I could tell from her eyes that she wasn't herself anymore. Maybe, this was the right thing to do.

Not for me, but for her.